Tuesday, August 4, 2015

The all in one parent

I really think I'm destined to be a single parent for the rest of my kids childhood.  I truly hope it's not my reality for the rest of my life. Yes I'm sure I made poor choices as to the other dna donors. But damn, I'm not that bad of a person. Let's compare just for shits and giggles. All names will be withheld to protect the guilty. 
I've never cheated on a boyfriend or husband, Ya hear.  Ever!!!
I work my ass off and use my brain trying to be a successful businesswoman. I don't use men just to see what I can get out of them. 
I am a homeowner, yes mine.  Not mine and the mortgage company! 
I am one hell of a mom, I try to provide my kids with the best life possible. They work hard in school and in sports. They will be in college and busy with their own adult lives before too long. I want to make everyday count with them. 
So tell me how is it that I cannot find a decent partner. Yes partner. My equal to share with. Not to do 100% for me and vice versa. 
When I know people who continually lie and cheat on each other. Leave their spouses for others and do the same thing again.  I know men who take on women who have no aspirations to become better, unwilling to work, no education to speak of, but they are stellar in shopping and spending money.  These folks sure seem happy and carefree. And seem to take a lot of vacations. 
I wouldn't know how to act if I had someone doing for me what I've always done for us and the shitty choices I made ( men who I've supported)
I'm not saying my little family of 3, since one of my kids is out on his own, does horribly bad, but I will be honest and say there is a lot of month left after the money hits the bank. That $$ would be from wages, not child support, I don't receive any of that stuff....although I hear some peeps get that!
So please tell me where one looks, and how the hell they have time to look. Cause I'm pretty busy being the mom, dad, breadwinner, yard girl, chef, cheerleader, scorekeeper, and all kinds of other shit. 
My friends tell me to be patient that I will get the man I deserve when the time is right. Well I sure hope he has his running shoes on cause I don't have time to wait on his ass!